I have been thinking...

Over time I feel like I have become THAT PERSON. Not sure why. I have always been happy with who I am. I have always been there for my friends but I have learned that people not always be there for me. This is not a poor me entry at all. But I feel like with everything that I have experienced and go through I have segregated myself. Does anyone else feel like that out there that goes through the pain that I go through? I feel like I need a fresh start. Simple things like when I my boyfriend and I broke up. Some of my best friends were not there for me and they saw me going through it. And now that they are going through the exact same thing thing they want me to be there for them. It sounds selfish but part of me wants to be "like why?" But I know that deep down that is now me. Or where were some of these friends when I was in the hospital with my pains? Instead they were more concerned with material things. No this is not indicative of all my friends. And no I do not expect everyone to come to a stop for me or fix my problems. That is why I have a therapist. But a friend is someone you can rely and lean on. Maybe my situation is too much for some of my friends. I don't know...I have been thinking...